Heard this interesting podcast about emotions. At one part, they talk about death and how the interviewee was handling it. I can relate to this.
Mom left us this April. I did not cry.
Was I not sad?
Did I had no emotion?
Or maybe I did not care?
I am sad very sad. But just at the point of time, I am less sad than now. During that period, I was able to overcome my sadness with the preparation of the funeral. I had to be strong. The loss start becoming real about two weeks later, you feel something missing. It’s that caring, it’s that feeling, it’s that cooking that I can never get it again.
Invisibilia: Emotions Part One